Siendo Una Mujer ~ Being A Woman

I often joke about how Tango is my therapy, but in all honesty, there is no joking about it. This dance has changed me.

Many of you see me buying shoes and enjoying the happiness in that. But what you do not see is my foundational work and the internal work and the work not yet created. To allow myself to be completely vulnerable to ME. That is what this dance has done for me. Its allowed me to experience revelations on were I am frozen, possibly paralyzed and moments of where I flourish in my dance and I am free. I have started a journal of my experiences in class as well as my milongas. I realize that with each day, I experience me but there are multiple levels of that presence.

It has been powerful to write about what shines for me in the education of this dance and what my words are from an evening of dancing til 3am at a Milonga. There is no doubt, this dance takes commitment… not only to engage in the steps and the code and the way, but a commitment to oneself that only we as individuals can acknowledge. Yes it is truly a passion, but it is also the best kept secret to personal growth. I wanted to share a few of my AHA moments from this past week while attending 22.5 hours of classes and also an emotional moments before and after the Milongas late night.

3.6.17 Moira Castellano's invaluable information:
*Always adjust yourself in an odd embrace. It will be your fault to the dance, if you do not.
*There are no followers and no leaders. There are dancers.
*Offer your presence, I accept your invitation to dance. Allow them to understand that your motor is running and you are an active participant in the embrace. “I am always ready to dance, you’re asking me to dance? I will dance, you will feel my dance”.

I arrived in BA with RSV. The plane wasn’t my most favorite of trips. My chest was incredibly heavy and I wasn’t well. I took a few days to rest and to heal. I took my time as I knew that I would need energy and presence to learn and to dance. We decided one evening to attend a Practilonga at Bicicleta and I was still a little under the weather.

My tango sister/ travel buddy and I arrived at the location and opened the door. Immediately the sound of the live orchestra was playing. My heart rushed with excitement. I coughed a little and climbed the stairs. I felt confident but a little weak, but never the less I strapped on my black tango shoes that are my go to feel good, dependable shoes. I was asked to dance by a beautiful tall, older local fellow and when I embraced him, I immediately felt a rush of panic, fear and nervousness. It happens sometimes. My teeth should have been physically chattering from the way I felt inside. We danced our first dance of the tanda, my dance wasn’t good nor was it bad. It just wasn’t. I looked at hime and asked if he spoke English, he did. I apologized for being so nervous. We laugh and agreed “now that I am over with that … “lets dance” he said. He embraced me in a quietly strong but soft hug, I took a deep breath…. I was back in my body and the next three songs were what they should be… lovely, peaceful and almost meditative.

The moment for me to shift my dance was that moment of authenticity. No he probably didn’t want to hear that I had been sick, although I am sure he would have listened. No he didn’t want to hear me make excuses for myself and my anxiety over the situation. Yes he wanted to dance. Yes he wanted to dance and he choose to do that with ME. So… After I disclosed my moment of nervousness and became a vulnerable person with him, of which I took a chance at doing so, he embraced me and he became incredibly present and a visionary at the same time. I went back to my earlier memory of what was said in class: let me show you how I can dance, I will not be the follower, but I will be your partner and we can move together to something that we both hold dear.

Here’s to Tango and to being Human.

With Love,  McCarson Leigh

Photo:  DNI Practica, Buenos Aires.  3.4.17

Class Schedule Teaser


For all you lovely ladies that are excited about registering for Tango Contradiction's first WOMENS retreat at Eureka Lodge 7/28 -7/30/17, here is a sneak peek for you for our first day of classes!!

class 1-
a) 10:00-11:00- Tango Inform: Stretch and swing the travel out of your body. We will do exercises to create supple feet in communication with the floor. Invoke the core of the standing leg, release in the free leg and stretch and loosen the hips.
b) 11:00-12:00- Musical Magicallity: Connect to your partner, the floor,and the music using the most basic recipe calling for the fewest ingredients.

class 2- 2:30-3:15- Basic Figure and Technique for locomotion, linear movements of Tango that travel. Elegant posture and good balance contribute to the independence of the follower and the clarity of the leader.

class 3- 5-6:15- Linear and Circular movement- Cuttin up a rug with two basic concepts of moving together and/or around each other. How we create diagnals, spirals and lines within our bodies, with our partners and with the space. An introduction to leading the ocho and giro.


Remember there are 20 spots available for registration. Find a friend and share a room, or if you'd like private time, simply register for one of the single rooms for yourself. Go to our RETREAT tab where you will find the right package for you to register come January 10th, 2017!  

Hasta entonces...

My First San Diego Tango!

WOW. What a festival. 2016 marked the year of my first adventure to San Diego to experience another level of my tango journey. I will admit that my favorite moments at the festival where not only dancing with amazing leads, immersing myself in the music but all in all, it was Carrie Hortense-Fields Ladies Technique classes and her Tango Inform. 

If you haven't taken one of her classes before, it's a must and you have the opportunity to take full advantage of her education and technique come this July 2017.  What I learned in San Diego is only a very small amount of what she will teach in July.  This past week, I learned to connect even better with my body.  My step in to the OCHO, my ability to pivot at my best using all that god gave me to do so and to really hold myself high in a confident way.  Her embellishment guidance was superb and the body restoration with her Tango Inform helped my ladies body find peace after dancing so many hours of the day. It assisted me in getting ready for the milongas in the evening and my body was better prepared.  

I continue to learn from Carrie on what my body is capable of and if I work hard and I am committed to this dance, the practice shows. As we continue to dance, if we do not seek guidance on our movements, its very possible that we can develop bad habits, habits that can affect so much of what we do as Tangueras. 

This past week was a big part of my ongoing journey as a dancer.  I actually stepped in to lead on occasion during the classes. This was huge for me. While I have been learning leaders technique an trying to become a solid block of awesomeness, my femininity also plays in to my dance.  I have found confidence in taking another follower  by the hand and saying, lets do this because we are not going to just stand here!  

At the TANGO CONTRADICTION retreat in July, we will all learn how to be our best as followers and many of us will learn techniques that will assist us in becoming great leads.  Carrie will be teaching us all!  With 7 classes and privates, this retreat is going to be all for the WOMAN!

I'm so glad I had the opportunity to be a part of Carrie's classes as well as a follower and a lead at the Festival. Being able to have the capacity to do both roles when needed has really enhanced my dance.  

REGISTRATION OPENS JANUARY 10, 2017 for the TANGO CONTRADICTION women's retreat!  Here on this website you will see the registration options. If you really want to be on the journey of a great dancer in Tango... then come! We'd love to have you. It's a retreat for any woman.  Please keep in mind that the retreat is limited to 20 very special ladies. 

Have a beautiful day!

McCarson Leigh

(photo- Sarah Sutter, McCarson Jones, Dean Bowman and Sam Brow)